Happy New Year! My baby is one already. Insanity. He is simply the most precious, beautiful creature and he's already one! I've been thinking back to the whole labour and birth experience (shudder) and it's true that you forget how it feels, sort of. What I do remember is thinking "this is the most awful feeling I have ever experienced, urgh yuck ouch etc". I can't remember the exact physical pain but I know it was hard, really hard. Unfortunately if we want another baby I'm going to have to do it again. I can't willing put myself through that yet but I also can't say that I don't want more children so at some point I'll have to stop whinging and start breeding.
Sam's first Christmas was pretty great. He got too many toys of course but it was nice having him there to focus on. There is something really nice about watching your child open a gift. The actual day went well although there was lots of driving and rushing from one place to another which I could have done without. When you have a baby suddenly eveyone wants to see you. Next year I'd like to stay at home but that's probably not ever going to happen what with parents and step parents and in laws. At least we have family to spend the day with, I knew at least 3 people who killed themselves just before Christmas time. What a shame that we have become so self obsessed and bad at looking out for each other. I am the most self focussed, introverted person of all sometimes but I'm trying to change, honest.
My brother in law got married about a week ago and it was awsome. He married a friend who he has known for years and they are completely perfect for each other. He had to go the long way around and suffer some lonliness and regret first but now he is in the great position of being able to start a life together with someone he loves. I remember when Corey and I got married. It was so exciting and satisfying to know that I was with the exact right person for me. I knew we would be happy and we are. Yey for being married.